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A Personal Confession

Well.... It is almost 2013 and I have been on this blog since earlier this year,commenting and posting along with a group of people who are a helluva lot smarter than I am and who are very well-versed in baseball, sabermetrics and a ton of other stuff. I have a learned a lot, but I have to admit something: I've been on AN for a lot longer.

See, a few of you (probably not) may vaguely remember a couple of posters while back, like chavez247, Sean Fortuna, Oakland All-Star and two or three others. All guys who were on for a few months and then "disappeared". The truth is, those guys were actually me, posting under a false alias.

I found AN whileago and immediately created an account. Of course I used false info, lied about by name, etc etc. I was testing it out and loved it but after a while I became unhappy with my account and started a new one. Again false info, and this continued for quite a while until I finally created Scottty J, using real info - yes I am 14 and yes I do live in Switzerland. What I have posted on my new account is all true, that is definite. The stuff before... Not so much. See I wasn't comfortable with using real info ln the web so I faked stuff but it was also my personality.

As strange as it may seem to those who know me, I am a perfectionist. Everytime I made a comment I was not happy with I created a new account because I wanted to be perfect and be a respected member and all that. I'm not sure whether OCD is the right term, but that's just me. It extends to other things too; mess up in a video game and I start over. Make a mistake in a drawing and the whole thing goes in the trash. It's annoying for others but especially for me because believe you me there is nothing worse than starting over because you just can't help yourself.

Well I quit that witth Scotty J because I knew that starting over was not gonna get me anywhere on AN and I am glad I did because I have had a lot of fun on this site and have talked baseball with some pretty sweet people. AN has really helped me learn stuff about baseball, ad during the offseason I've checked what's happening a lot, especially after a nasty thumb injury kept me from actually playing sports and has forced me to be cautious and tape from now on; its pretty depressing when you're a sports-obsessed 14 year-old. Anyway, this site has cheered me up and I like that.

I realize that this is a short post but I wanted to get this off my chest. I am glad I did and I hope this will not be held against me thought I mighgt not be surprised if it is. Or maybe it really doesn't matter and this was a pointless post. Just wanted to get this out there.

Thank you.